Monday, June 30, 2003
i am getting really getting "in" into this 'blog' thing.
maybe i should develop a blog site?
hey, i really would love to create a blog site.
it will be fun,
using the site that is. making it may not be that easy.
since i have no idea of it can be made.
gotta think abt it
but i still think its a grreat idea
hey,, ideas starting to flow
how abt a blog site where theres a group of members (friends, or colleagues), who can all write on it, which will be visible to all.
so it will be a common platform for all to share their thoughts, ideas and 'chalus'.
hmm gotta work on this
maybe i should develop a blog site?
hey, i really would love to create a blog site.
it will be fun,
using the site that is. making it may not be that easy.
since i have no idea of it can be made.
gotta think abt it
but i still think its a grreat idea
hey,, ideas starting to flow
how abt a blog site where theres a group of members (friends, or colleagues), who can all write on it, which will be visible to all.
so it will be a common platform for all to share their thoughts, ideas and 'chalus'.
hmm gotta work on this
is the world being cruel to me?
or is it being kind to me?
thinking abt it, the world is kind to me
was i right or wrong in punishing her?
do i have the right to punish another person, when i myself have done so many wrongs?
was i right, considering that she had wronged to me, and so i should be the one punishing her?
wasn't i wrong, since i have also wronged to her. directly or indirectly?
i don't know, i am confused.
i don't feel much remorse anyway, for punishing her. she deserved it, from me or someone else.
maybe i deserve more than that.
i do deserve more than that.
should i contact her again?
haven't called her for a few days, and have resisted meeting her, though she has been asking me the whole night.
but, my mind is starting to waver now. thinkning from other perspectives.
is it really worth not contacting her?
contacting her will only cause more mental pain for me, for sure.
but still, find it tough to leave her just like that.
will i regret it?
she hasn't called since noon, and i already find it a little difficult.
it was easy to reject her, when she kept calling and coming back to me, but when she stopped calling, its starting to sink in. and the mind has started to get really disturbed.
what should i do?
should i control my mind, and keep away from her (one part of my mind says thats the best
thing i can do, and will be a victory for my mind)
or should i think "what the hell" and that "i can control myself" and contact her again?
but if i do so, i might end up feeling like the loser again, which i dont wanna feel.
so this time i am really confused.
anyway, lets see. she might not even call again, in which case, things might get easier. or worse.
ok, i agree, i am confused.
or is it being kind to me?
thinking abt it, the world is kind to me
was i right or wrong in punishing her?
do i have the right to punish another person, when i myself have done so many wrongs?
was i right, considering that she had wronged to me, and so i should be the one punishing her?
wasn't i wrong, since i have also wronged to her. directly or indirectly?
i don't know, i am confused.
i don't feel much remorse anyway, for punishing her. she deserved it, from me or someone else.
maybe i deserve more than that.
i do deserve more than that.
should i contact her again?
haven't called her for a few days, and have resisted meeting her, though she has been asking me the whole night.
but, my mind is starting to waver now. thinkning from other perspectives.
is it really worth not contacting her?
contacting her will only cause more mental pain for me, for sure.
but still, find it tough to leave her just like that.
will i regret it?
she hasn't called since noon, and i already find it a little difficult.
it was easy to reject her, when she kept calling and coming back to me, but when she stopped calling, its starting to sink in. and the mind has started to get really disturbed.
what should i do?
should i control my mind, and keep away from her (one part of my mind says thats the best
thing i can do, and will be a victory for my mind)
or should i think "what the hell" and that "i can control myself" and contact her again?
but if i do so, i might end up feeling like the loser again, which i dont wanna feel.
so this time i am really confused.
anyway, lets see. she might not even call again, in which case, things might get easier. or worse.
ok, i agree, i am confused.
Thursday, June 19, 2003
The way my mind works is weird. if its weird for me, i wonder how it'll seem to others!
my memory, or rather the absence of it has gotten me into enough of trouble already, gotta do something abt it.
my memory, or rather the absence of it has gotten me into enough of trouble already, gotta do something abt it.
